Goodbye .. :'(

(8th Nov)  Oh dear , this is the worst day of my life because he's gone . He's already at Muar , his hometown . I've already miss you dear . Yesterday , we sat together from 8 am till 12 pm at my house . That's my last day with him . He made me embarrassed because I saw he just looked me and hold my hand . When I asked him ..

Hanim : Why do you looked me like that ?

Him : I know I will miss this cute look when I leave  tomorrow .

Then , I just looked him and wondering how am I going to continue my life without him by my side . Durrani fetched him from my house at 12 pm . He told me that he wanted to stay with me longer but I've no choice . He had to follow Durrani . 

At 4 pm , Durrani sent him to my house again . He asked me to cook spaghetti carbonara for him because he wanted to test my cook , HAHA . How silly ! But then he told me that he can't eat mushrooms because of his allergy . I just said never mind but inside of me , I felt sad because I stay up even I'm so sleepy and tired that day . After that , I brought him to our HOME . He rode a bicycle and so was I . We made it as a race but for sure I'll win because I know he will never let me be sad if I lost . I love you so much sayang . . .

And we made our way to the hill (home) , he scolded me because I didn't bring him there since he's here . I ate some buah 'kedondong' because I felt it has been a quite long time I stopped eating it . Suddenly , some sticky liquid came out from it . He quickly took it from my hand and bit it so that I will never eat it . Then , I realized that day is the last day I'll be with him . Suddenly , I cried because I don't want to be apart from him . He wiped my tears and promised me he will come back this year . 

Hanim : I don't mind if you want to come back , but I don't want you leave . 

Him : Sayang , I'll come back just for you dear .

Hanim : Honey , if I eat kedondong or sit here again , I'll remember you .

Him : You'll promise me you won't find another boy ? You promise me you will never leave me ?? 

I nodded but my heart didn't have the strength to say yes . Then , I said his name .

Hanim : Honey ?

Him : Hmmm ..

Hanim : Why don't you want to see my face ??

Him : I won't have the heart to leave you and this place ..

After then , we say goodbye .. He sent me a text message , 'You took my heart , your friends and this place too . I'll come back .. I promise ..'

And then , I told myself don't cry because I love him so much .. <3