It's my birthday !

This is my friends-tree :)

Hazni Hanim , Minn Halina , Ali Iman , Ikmal Faiz :))

HAHA .. I was just finished replying ALL my friends wishes on Facebook .. Thanks for remembering !*it's on the reminder Facebook ==' Anyway , this Sunday I'll update this blog again because that's when my birthday party ! Well , as you'll know , my birthday is on 29th April , we're just having a small party with Minn Halina , Noor Fatin Noordin , Ikmal Faiz , Ali Iman , Asyraf and Ikhwan :) thanks you guyss ! Love you all so much ! And thanks to Ali Iman for buying me Subway , that's my present .. As usual , we will pranked everyone we see at there .. Pity them == .. But HAHA .. nevermind , that's all I can do to make me happy .. Poor Fatin , when we're telling stories , she just seems blur , like she doesn't understand .. HAHA .. The funniest thing ever is my ex wished my birthday on 28th April !! At 12 am confidently ! How come he can forget it if he said he love me ?  See , you never put me in your reminder in your brain .. Then , GOODBYE ! I don't need you anymore .. I've already accept a present from Ermin Syahmin :) Thanks girl :) It's my hobby ! It's a COMIC ! A cute comic , the characters is just like me and my friend .. It's Neko .. Neko , I love your cartoon ! It's cute :)

Why is it so hard ?? Crying alone are better :)

Oh my god , I don't think this can work anymore .. I just lost my strength for looking at them .. I'm not strong , I'm just a normal person .. Maybe someday , I'll get a BETTER person .. That's what everybody told me .. They're not in my shoes , that's the reason they can talk easily .. BUT me ?? I can't think further .. I made mistakes , I shouldn't give myself HOPES that will not be mine .. I want to leave all the memories , I just can't .. I'm pushing myself into a DEEP HOLE that fill with love that only exist in my mind .. I shouldn't ! Allah , give me strength , only for 8 more months .. I promise myself if I don't stop myself from falling in love again , I'll let myself away .. That's my promise .. Love is supposed to be fun memory , not like this ! Hiding love from somebody I care :( I can't see THIS anymore .. Please stop it ! I can't take it anymore ! I'm pretending ? Whoever can survived theirs lives like me ? Who else ? I hide it DOWN DOWN DOWN deep in my soul .. Where nobody cares .. How I wish you would feel the same way .. But it's just a WISH .. It's not coming to be reality .. I've to accept this kind of life , loving from far away .. But it's just unfair for me .. Hanim , let it be .. You're strong , remember that .. All this while , you've been sacrifice for them , you'll get DOUBLE .. But if not , you have to change to a new life ... Like years ago .. I'm crying inside , so that nobody knows how was the WAR in my heart .. The WAR did break my heart , break the blood capillary and I think it's the time for me to go .. Away and away .. Not be seeing them again :) Please make this feelings go away as I care about him so much and I want him to be happy even it's not with me .. It's okay if I'm crying alone in the dessert so no one will hurt me anymore :) Love to see his smile never stop till my breathe start to stop :D

New Life :D

Ohh now ? I'm single .. Anybody who want to fill the blank , just text me :) Kidding ! No way , I'm not in the mood for falling in love again .. So , maybe I won't be writing about my love again , but maybe someday I'll write again :) HAHA .. Now , I'm happy with my life when I'm surrounded by friends .. This morning , I brought them my Spagetti Carbonara but unfortunately , they were expired :( I was so sad till I cried at my guys friends .. How humiliated ! But my best friend scolded those who made me cried , I never meant to give them the expired one .. Well , on 2nd April 2011 , me and my most of my classmates , 5Aman , went to The Mines for the Karnival Jom Masuk U .. There , we were having fun and we learnt how to get proceed our studies into Universities or Collages .. Guess what ? I'm a sing MANIAC ! I forced all my buddies to follow me to the Karaoke Just K :D Like what we didn't believe , Ali Iman actually can SING ! Oh my gosh ! It's unbelievable ! He took a mic then sing . LOL :D But it's okay , I love to see him happy :) So was I ! I completely forgot that I'm still a girl who also a student .. How stupid am I ? HAHA .. Talking about karaoke , I entered the Nasyid competition at school .. I hope I get it , of course right ? That's what we want when we enter a competition , TO WIN .. HAHA .. So many 'W' :D Hmmmm , I still miss my ex .. Okay , if you can't see his picture anymore underneath mine , well it means I actually have completely forgotten about him .. For now , I still can't .. There's lot of memories still running around in my head .. OHHH ! I almost forgot ! When we went to the Karnival , I actually FORCED Ali Iman to wear my white bangle , just for fun :) Ali , if you're reading this , I'm sorry :| For the conclusion , I am SO HAPPY with my life now although there's no TRUE LOVE in my heart now :) Thank you guys for making me be a great person :)))