It's my birthday !

This is my friends-tree :)

Hazni Hanim , Minn Halina , Ali Iman , Ikmal Faiz :))

HAHA .. I was just finished replying ALL my friends wishes on Facebook .. Thanks for remembering !*it's on the reminder Facebook ==' Anyway , this Sunday I'll update this blog again because that's when my birthday party ! Well , as you'll know , my birthday is on 29th April , we're just having a small party with Minn Halina , Noor Fatin Noordin , Ikmal Faiz , Ali Iman , Asyraf and Ikhwan :) thanks you guyss ! Love you all so much ! And thanks to Ali Iman for buying me Subway , that's my present .. As usual , we will pranked everyone we see at there .. Pity them == .. But HAHA .. nevermind , that's all I can do to make me happy .. Poor Fatin , when we're telling stories , she just seems blur , like she doesn't understand .. HAHA .. The funniest thing ever is my ex wished my birthday on 28th April !! At 12 am confidently ! How come he can forget it if he said he love me ?  See , you never put me in your reminder in your brain .. Then , GOODBYE ! I don't need you anymore .. I've already accept a present from Ermin Syahmin :) Thanks girl :) It's my hobby ! It's a COMIC ! A cute comic , the characters is just like me and my friend .. It's Neko .. Neko , I love your cartoon ! It's cute :)

Why is it so hard ?? Crying alone are better :)

Oh my god , I don't think this can work anymore .. I just lost my strength for looking at them .. I'm not strong , I'm just a normal person .. Maybe someday , I'll get a BETTER person .. That's what everybody told me .. They're not in my shoes , that's the reason they can talk easily .. BUT me ?? I can't think further .. I made mistakes , I shouldn't give myself HOPES that will not be mine .. I want to leave all the memories , I just can't .. I'm pushing myself into a DEEP HOLE that fill with love that only exist in my mind .. I shouldn't ! Allah , give me strength , only for 8 more months .. I promise myself if I don't stop myself from falling in love again , I'll let myself away .. That's my promise .. Love is supposed to be fun memory , not like this ! Hiding love from somebody I care :( I can't see THIS anymore .. Please stop it ! I can't take it anymore ! I'm pretending ? Whoever can survived theirs lives like me ? Who else ? I hide it DOWN DOWN DOWN deep in my soul .. Where nobody cares .. How I wish you would feel the same way .. But it's just a WISH .. It's not coming to be reality .. I've to accept this kind of life , loving from far away .. But it's just unfair for me .. Hanim , let it be .. You're strong , remember that .. All this while , you've been sacrifice for them , you'll get DOUBLE .. But if not , you have to change to a new life ... Like years ago .. I'm crying inside , so that nobody knows how was the WAR in my heart .. The WAR did break my heart , break the blood capillary and I think it's the time for me to go .. Away and away .. Not be seeing them again :) Please make this feelings go away as I care about him so much and I want him to be happy even it's not with me .. It's okay if I'm crying alone in the dessert so no one will hurt me anymore :) Love to see his smile never stop till my breathe start to stop :D

New Life :D

Ohh now ? I'm single .. Anybody who want to fill the blank , just text me :) Kidding ! No way , I'm not in the mood for falling in love again .. So , maybe I won't be writing about my love again , but maybe someday I'll write again :) HAHA .. Now , I'm happy with my life when I'm surrounded by friends .. This morning , I brought them my Spagetti Carbonara but unfortunately , they were expired :( I was so sad till I cried at my guys friends .. How humiliated ! But my best friend scolded those who made me cried , I never meant to give them the expired one .. Well , on 2nd April 2011 , me and my most of my classmates , 5Aman , went to The Mines for the Karnival Jom Masuk U .. There , we were having fun and we learnt how to get proceed our studies into Universities or Collages .. Guess what ? I'm a sing MANIAC ! I forced all my buddies to follow me to the Karaoke Just K :D Like what we didn't believe , Ali Iman actually can SING ! Oh my gosh ! It's unbelievable ! He took a mic then sing . LOL :D But it's okay , I love to see him happy :) So was I ! I completely forgot that I'm still a girl who also a student .. How stupid am I ? HAHA .. Talking about karaoke , I entered the Nasyid competition at school .. I hope I get it , of course right ? That's what we want when we enter a competition , TO WIN .. HAHA .. So many 'W' :D Hmmmm , I still miss my ex .. Okay , if you can't see his picture anymore underneath mine , well it means I actually have completely forgotten about him .. For now , I still can't .. There's lot of memories still running around in my head .. OHHH ! I almost forgot ! When we went to the Karnival , I actually FORCED Ali Iman to wear my white bangle , just for fun :) Ali , if you're reading this , I'm sorry :| For the conclusion , I am SO HAPPY with my life now although there's no TRUE LOVE in my heart now :) Thank you guys for making me be a great person :)))

Senior year , serious relationship and study :)

Hey guys ! I haven't open my blog for a long time .. Sorry because I'm too busy with study .. Well , SPM is just around the corner .. I have to struggle as hard as I can .. But in my life , he will never go away .. He still with me , text-ing me everyday .. But since now , he was busy with his own life .. We only contact each other around 6am till 6.30 am .. We're not like we used to , but it's okay .. I have to focus 100% in my study .. But if he wasn't with me , I'll lose 25% focus .. What should I do ? Honey , if you're reading this , please consider what I'm complaining .. COMPLAINING ? *DAAA ! =='
Well now , I'm moving to my friends .. Fyi , I got a new bestfriend ! Act , we're friends since last year but we're just talking to each other when necessary .. But now , we become closer and he was fun .. Act , he's kind of NERD and it's cool then .. You know what I'm saying ? HAHA .. The point is now Kamal is jealous with how closer I am to my bestfriend , but he doesn't know my love towards him can't compare with anything because it's TOO BIG ! *Sorry , can't control my emotional :)
As you can see , I've already changed into a new Hazni Hanim .. Years ago , Hazni Hanim is a girl who doesn't like to STUDY , don't know what she's going to be .. She only knows how to ENJOY !

But I met this new Hazni Hanim .. She likes to study , already has an ambition , and know how to balanced between serious(study) and enjoy(playing games) .. I hope I get 9 A's in SPM ..
Everybody says love destroy self .. I can't agree with that ! Because my life would be miserable without my family's loves and his love .. I'm sure love gives me support to be succeed in everything .. Again , thanks for reading this .. Byebye :)

Love MY LIFE <3

Second Date :)

WHEN LONG-DISTANCE LOVE MEET <3


HAZNI HANIM ;
KAMARUDDIN :)

Well , on 28th January 2011 he came to Kuala Lumpur again .. At first , I didn't give him permission to come here , but he then doesn't want to talk to me ..I know he wants me to coax her .. BUT he said the only coax that he accepts is I give him to come to my hometown .. Then I asked him ..
Hanim : Where you want to sleep ? How are you going to reach my house ?
Him : It's okay .. Taxi got maa ..
Hanim : Up to you laa ..
Then he arrived ..
Hurin : Hurmmm , came again ? :D
Him : Just for my Hanim :)
I'm just smiling :)
We didn't go anywhere but he asked me to take him to HOME again .. He loved to be there , it's so peaceful ..
We make videos just to make me less miss him .. He said it was a Winter Sonata because we're holding an umbrella and we walked through rain .. Isn't it romantic ? HAHA ..
He then slept at Hurin's boyfriend's house .. He walked from Balakong to my house just because Burn wasn't wake up yet .. When he reached here , he had to wait for me because I was overslept .. Sorry honey ..
I took him to Minn's house because she was sick .. Then three of us went to Old Town to have breakfast .. He forced me to eat Nasi Lemak but my stomach didn't feel hungry at all .. Suddenly I saw he's sleeping .. I wonder why until I remember he didn't sleep 2 days because he's afraid he couldn't wake up .. I asked him to sleep at my house corridor when reached at my house .. Rain didn't stop falling and the weather started to feel chill as a cucumber .. He said he loved when I put him under a blanket .. Well , it's cold and I felt pity him ..
We hang out till midnight because he wanted to have dinner with me .. It was the last for us .. And I feel safe when he put his arm on my shoulder .. BUT he forgot that he left his bag at my house .. My sister will gives back his bag tomorrow morning .. I thought something sweet on my mind .. I wrote him a love letter that tells how much I love him .. I hope he red it while thinking about me .. I gave him a piece of my picture , a name tag (just playing) , and a shirt that I used to wear .. As a returned of his Polo t-shirt that he gave me ..

HONEY , DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ? 

But I know we can't meet till SPM ends .. A year left .. MUAR , wait for me :D So are you :)

I MISS YOU SO MUCH DEAR :)